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September 3, 2009

I keep this post up from 2009 because I had grown up being told I couldn’t and shouldn’t be an artist and I worked my way into becoming one after much fear toward claiming that, both in myself and outwardly. I came to art as a second career and it was not easy and I was often older than my colleagues, but I pressed on. This post and the piece it discusses below are the first show I had ever been in. I honor the person I was back then and the person I have become after years of hard work. I credit the book, The Artists’ Way, by Julia Cameron for being my support system and guide as I claimed something not easy to admit: that I am an artist and a serious one:

“writing and talking about others’ amazing pieces and work that elicit “enamouren” in me is much easier than speaking about my own work.  it’s an area that i’ve been afraid of delving into because of the sordid history of myself and art.  after years of neglecting visual arts because of family-ingrained fears, i finally embarked on creating a porftolio.  i managed to finish the standard 20-piece series.

it was exhilirating and clear that i could start going in this direction.  but fear subsisted.  now that i am working on a second and more clearly organized portfolio, i’ve battled the urge to distract myself away from the work– often delving deeply into non-related activities or research that i’d normally avoid. when your passion for something is so intense, bonding and having some kind of solid relationship with it is frightening.  as i struggle through new pieces, however, i’m using lessons that i learned from my first portfolio.  the work in the first series was well received by friends and a few mfa graduate department staff.  professors and some professional artists, however, received it poorly.  nevertheless, i have to push myself forward into this very daunting, intimidating place– often feeling very lost and not sure of what piece will come next.  i sacrificed so much to get here, that it is worth it to me to pursue this line before moving onto something else (if that ever happens).

a vision begins to emerge in my second portfolio– a narrative regarding the body, particularly female, and how it negotiates the canvas, the page, or its spatial confines in general.  i’m still developing my vision, creating pieces that relate to each other, attempting to exhaust every visual idea in order to grasp its quintessence and the necessity for creating it in the first place.

i admire those that are obsessed with their work.  that follow it through and experiment with it until their fingers, mind, eyes, and soul are sore.

while working on my portfolio, i happened to have my first exhibition at the Sound show for The Other Side Arts in Aurora, Colorado (June, 2009).  the piece, called Noodles, consists of a menu for a fictitious restaurant, Noodles Eatery, posted above plates filled with noodles.  the noodles, however, are made of tape ribbon– each plate sampling various artists such as Sade, or moments of sound from The Star Wars (Twin Pack) and Glenn Graham’s Let ‘Er Rip, pun intended.  my goal was for visitors to be able to visualize and imagine eating sound.  chopsticks accompany the plates.

Edible sound

Noodles Eatery Menu

TOSA Sound exhibit

the photograph of the menu is quite grainy. transcipt is below:

Noodles Eatery


Sade Diamond Life

w/ a side of Chant (The Benedictine Monks of Santo

Domingo de Silos)


Star Wars (Twin Pack)



Glenn Graham Let ‘Er Rip (Small or Large)





Artist:  Shiva Aliabadi

The Other Side Arts: Sound

Aurora, CO

June 2009″